I am not surprised by saying that my performance went by like a flash. Though the morning felt like it went on forever, the ten minutes that I was performing felt only like seconds. Timing was a worry I often had when rehearsing as I was concerned my performance may not be long enough. Though I rehearsed and rehearsed it was difficult for me to predict how long the silences would be and where which they would fall. Due to the script reflecting hidden meanings I was keen to let it flow naturally and I wanted the audiences reactions to heavily influence the rhythm which the performance would take.

In my morning rehearsal I was faced with the problem that the bed in which I was expecting was no longer available to use which left me with just a mattress on the floor. At first this worried me as I felt it would cheapen the performance however on reflection this helped the audience to see my full face even when laying flat. I was keen to portray a real bedroom environment so took a simple lighting choice of having my own bedside lamp next to me. Though this worked as I hoped it would, it was suggested that I have a soft blue gel lighting me from the front to ensure that I could be fully seen, Though I was unsure of this at first, I was very happy with the end result which did not deter from the bedroom atmosphere I wanted.

Though I did not steer at all away from my script, I feel that my performance could have been better. Thankfully my audience could not see my legs shaking under the duvet but I felt much more nervous than I expected to. I put this down to this being my final performance and the fear of the unknown – what if I’ve got completely the wrong idea? I was happy with my decision to include a ticking clock and feel it was right to my performance to just have this as a sound effect. Though I had always envisioned a projection of a ticking clock behind me I came to ask – who has a giant ticking clock in their bedroom? Though I stand by my piece as a worthy performance I wanted to stay away from creating an aesthetic ‘performance’ look, my script was very honest and I wanted its realism to show.

I found that at times during my performance my voice would shake as I felt emotional at points that I did not expect to. I am not at all disappointed by this as it reassured me that I felt true to my script and that I believed what I was saying. I have previously been praised for my positive outlook on life and even the worst of things and I hope that I was able to present this positivity in the way in which I see it – realistic.

I have recieved great feedback from a number of people that came to watch my performance to which I am extremely grateful for. Overall I was happy with my effort and am grateful to the module for enabling me to take any path in which I have wanted to. Though I was anxious before performing, my solo performance was not in any sense as daunting as I first imagined it may be. Solo performance has strengthened my independence, reassured my confidence while allowing me to perform a piece that is close to my heart. Through my performance I wanted to test time and the notion of waiting. It is something that we live our lives by and something that will carry on long after we are gone. I hope that I was able to credit this while also including an autobiographical detail through a personal hidden message.